Friday, December 29, 2006
Selfishness..well... maybe i thought pple were kind and stuff.. but i didnt realise how cruel this world can be.. or rather maybe i am too stupid of not knowing anything.. haiz.. maybe its me bah.. i am not aggressive enough.. i feel so vunerable to the pple ard me.. i juz dun like that type of feeling.. maybe this is juz the world.. welcome to the world...
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Wednesday, December 27, 2006
Upseti think thats the only word that can describe my feeling now.. sigh... shall not elaborate more on this... sometimes i juz cant understand certain things.. sigh... reali upset..
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Tuesday, December 26, 2006
Results..officially got my results today though i knew it like a few days back.. emm.. i think this sem i didnt do well.. but well some improvement is better than nothing and all i neo is next sem will be a crucial semester.. i cant afford to drop.. and i learn wat to believe and wat not to.. i neo who are my friends and who are not.. juz glad that i make it once again..
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Wednesday, December 13, 2006
Feeling stress...dunno y even though examz is over.. i still feel stressed... haiz... getting mood swings... and get irritated easily.. sigh... suddenly miss poly... it's where i get all the fun.. the feeling reali sucks when u r doing something that u dun like.. i hate it when i get nth out of the effort i put in.. haiz... guess everyone also has this feeling b4... haiz.. sometimes want to cry sometimes i reali want to run away from all the prob... haiz... maybe 1 of these days i will turn mad and drop out of sch...
pressure coming from everywhere.. esp myself.. and the environment ard me... pple doin well and me falling back.. maybe i am juz plain stupid... i dun like pple to act in front of me esp on things concerning studies... i juz dun like... well guess i haf to get used to it.. and tell myself this is reality... haiz.. suddenly feel so helpless.. i reali miss doin things i like...
i hate being fat... its not something i want... i am ugly and its also something i dun want... who wants to be fat and ugly.. now i feel so low in confidence... haiz.. down down down...
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Tuesday, December 05, 2006
Examz is over...thought i can do abit better than last sem... but well things are so unpredictable.. i think this sem's results will be as bad as my 1st sem... think it is an eventful yr.. hapi and sad things happened.. my grandma passed away last thur.. she was 95 yrs old this yr.. and i still haf 1 more paper to go... so i studied at the wake and stuff.. veri tiring to go through all the ritual... so end up i got a small and tiring eyes during the paper...
anyway.. juz glad that exam is over and hope i can pass...
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