Wednesday, September 27, 2006
Upset...everything started well today.. waking up in the late morning... then started to do my report.. haiz.. so sianz.. can nv finish my reports.. then play tc.. haha.. complete 1 mission yesterday...finali.. so started wif another 1 today...
then met yp.. though got some 'problem' in the middle.. but when finali saw him everything is fine.. heez.. i juz like it this way.. haha.. had dinner.. then talked alot.. hahah.. enjoyable and simple.. then i think i made a veri big mistake that is to go home too early.. well actuali the time is 10+ le.. so not early.. but juz too early to get involved in 'something' which i hate the most...sigh...
its been quite a while since this peace is disturbed.. juz as i walked out of the life things were not quite the same.. haiz.. it reali dun feel gd when the topic of 'u r the oni 1 in the house that is not earning' is brought up everytime.. reali dun feel gd.. but seems like no one can undertsand this.. i also dun wish to be the oni 1 that is not earning and need parents to support me.. reali dun feel gd...
and someone who spend 21 yrs of life wif u say that in the near future u r goin to be an ungrateful brat.. i tell u this reali hurts.. on one seems to understand this simple theory.. i neo wat i said may be hurting.. becos i dun want me to be the cause of quarrel anymore.. quarrel on the issue and not drag everything in..
i am juz reali upset to cont on to do anything.. sometimes i reali wish i can juz leave them and i guess then things will be settle.. haiz.. i already tired my best to not request and get anything from u all... since young i seldom request for things.. been depending on myself whenever i can...
maybe its still not enough.. maybe it is a small matter to other pple.. but it had been a rather sensitive issue to me these few months..
let see who will be an ungrateful brat in the future...
_`i love u`_
