Friday, December 30, 2005
Finali i passed him the gift..
yap... after dragging this for 2 weeks or so.. i finally passed him the cross stitch i made for him... he likes it veri much... glad to hear it.. at least my effort was not wasted... actuali i oni intend to pass him the gift oni.. but.. he wanted to watch movie so much.. so i grant his wish... i juz take it as the last thing i will do for him... he gave me such a wonderful 2005 which i think nv in my life i will forget.. i dunneo if he feels the same.. but it doesnt matters anymore... during our meal i was jokingly asking him when he will stopped talking to me... he said wait till someone is here to take care of me then he can safely leave me in another guy's hand... i am hapi to hear this.. at least he is veri concerned abt me.. but on the other hand... i was thinking.. is there a need? i am will ok alone.. its not the end of the world... i juz neo that its time for me to let and let him live his new life... a life he yearned for 4 yrs.. as long as he is hapi... everything doesnt matters... even if its me crying every night for him.. its ok.. cos i neo he is hapi..
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
Pictures!
Clara and me~
Claudin and clara~
Claudin and me
David(genius) and clara
Jonathon and clara~
Jonathon(washed all the dishes,thanx!) and me
Pengwei and Clara
Steamboat!!
yeah!! yesterday my nus friends came to my house for steamboat! heez... i prepared quite alot of food for them.. so tired.. but i am veri hapi that they turned up.. heez.. we talked alot and joked alot... took some photos.. haha.. soon i will put them up... then we had a grilling session for clara.. haha.. cos she juz got attached!! haha... so fun.. haha.. was worried that things wont go that well but it still turned out great!! heez
after dinner i want to thanx jonathon for helping me washed all the dishes.. so touched.. haha.. reali.. haha.. thanx alot... then they gathered in my room to watch tv and talked.. i showed them my bear collection.. then something disatrous(sp) happened... claudin shaked my precious cookies!! OMG!! and now everything is broken into piece.. oni left 3 of them they remains intact.. sigh... but its ok.. cos she did it unintentionally.. heez...
after they left.. i went online and found out something rather surprising.. then end up talking on the phone until 3am+..
Monday, December 26, 2005
Christmas!!
christmas eve..happy time.. memorable..will nv forget.. ahha... simply hapi... met up wif my friend at abt 4pm..walked and talked... exchange gift... he made cookies for me... haha.. first time a guy make cookies for me.. taste quite nice.. heez.. so hapi... and i bought something for him.. glad that he likes it... then we head down from orchard to suntec.. he brought he to sky garden.. nv been there b4.. haha.. then we went nydc to have our dinner... sat there for quite some time.. then we walked to esplanade roof top again.. saw many balloons in the sky!! heez... hapi... then listened to some songs...
next we head down to clark quey..to meet up wif his friends... we went walking ard.. wanted to go to ministry of sound but the queue is damn long so we gave up the idea and went to the opp of the river to have a drink... i have veri nice pic of the tower..haha..tower is a 3.5L beer container..heez...hapi day then we left the place walked to MS..haha...walked ard to find new place to drink.. then we end up dunno where... drank again.. OMG...hah...i think is whisky..not sure though...
then we walked to singapore river.. talked and reach home at 530am..haha
Sunday, December 25, 2005
Merry Christmas!!
my first christmas celebration started on the 23rd at huixin's house.. heez.. we had bbq there.. li qi and huixin bought everything that was needed for the bbq.. reached her house ard 8pm.. then we started to start the fire and the bbq started.. it lasted for a few hours and we went up to her house for present exchange.. heez.. and i got a doggy piggy bank!! heez. i love it.. then we helped to clear up everything.. started to gossip in her room... then ghost story from mark.. hhah... went home at abt 3am+... veri hapi to see all my classmates again... heez..
yesterday.. went out at abt 3pm.. met up wif a friend... walked ard orchard road.. then we decided to head down to suntec city... he brought me to the sky garden.. haha.. i veri frog i didnt neo where is sky garden.. nv been there b4.. then after which we had our dinner at nydc.. yap.. sat there for quite a while chatted.. then i explore his new hp.. heez.. i love the camera.. its so nice.. and so clear.. then after which we walked to raffles city.. took some pic over there.. then we head down to esplanade... listened to some christmas carols.. and guess wat.. we saw balloons floating in the sky.. we wonder how come there are so many balloons.. heez... then we head down to clark quey to meet up wif his friends.. at first was kinda of weird but soon things start to warm up..haha... his friend,bobbie, even brought a christmas hat along.. haha. and i wore it..haha.. so fun... saw a couple of pple today.. saw kevin,priscilla and her bf, shuting,sumarlin,simon..haha.. we wanted to go to the ministry of sound... but oh man the que is like so so so long.. so we walked walked walked and end up at a dunno wat place.. haha...boat quey ard.. then we order 2 tower of beer.. and food.. to me the tower look like a rocket!! haha.. i will post the pic tml i guess..haha... cos the pic is wif my friend.
end up drinking then walked to MS.. haha.. i also dunno where they goin lah..juz followed.. then we went back to singapore river.. talked.. then it started to rain.. we headed back home... oh yar my friend made cookies for me as a christmas present.. heez... 1st time guy make food for me to eat..haha.. no bad... can ask him go make for his gf..hhahah
Friday, December 23, 2005
Results...
results are out and i PASSED!! yap... juz glad i passed.. but did veri badly... i guess i am juz hapi to pass bah... cos i neo this sem i went through alot.. yes alot and i am juz glad that i manage to clear.. no matter wat.. next sem i will work hard.. yes i will...
Guess he is still the best...
yar.. i think he is still the best bah... haiz.. dunno lah.. maybe i am juz thinking too much!! hate myself..... now i am juz goin to reali reali stop my heart from beating....
Thursday, December 22, 2005
He called...
he juz called me.. i am quite surprised.. i also dunno y... told him i finished the present that i want to gif him.. thinking abt it.. maybe tml night i will pass it to him... since i am goin over to the west side.. realised that he didnt dare to say a word in front of me.. haha.. guess he neos how i feel bah... was pretty hesitant b4 i pick up the phone.. dunno to pick up or not... in the end i chose to pick up cos i still need to find a time to pass him the stuff... maybe tml morning i gif him a msg and ask him if he can get it tml... well.. i will see how... if not will be on the 28th... feel so messy after his call...so so messy...
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
Thinking..
my parents went bugis and say that my horoscope = cow is best wif horoscope = rat... in terms of work i think... in love i am not sure.. haha... thinking... haha.. well.. i am still thinking how to gif the present to him.. haha.. maybe on the 28th i will drop by his place to gif him... so sianz...
Completed!!
YES!! FINALLY!! I have completed my masterpiece.. now i am juz waiting for the right time to deliver it.. yap... well though it is not perfect.. can said to be quite ugly... it's the thought that counts rite.. well even if he threw it away i also dunno.. so well... lets see my creation...
u all think it's nice? well today bought some christmas present.. haha.. 1 quite interesting to me.. haha... nvm i shall wait till christmas is over then i post them online..haha...
Sunday, December 18, 2005
Housewarming..
yesterday went for atmas's housewarming.. ahha.. wat i love abt his house is that it is so windy.. i love places that are windy.. heez.. then stone ard.. haha.. played wif kid... then watched the descent.. haha..quite horrifying.. and i shouted accidentally..haha.. so paiseh.. haha...
oh yar 16th was alan's birthday.. i thought everyone remember... in the end oni after i told dx then they realised.. haha... at first i was wondering y they didnt celebrate for him... but well i didnt ask much... then dx and i went to tiong bahru plaza to buy him a cake.. hope it can 'makeup' for it... haha..
reached home.. then watched tv till i fell aslp... woke up today... still feeling tired.. haha.. been veri tired recently... then slack ard.. watched tv.. played games... talked to my brother.. and watched tv again.. haha... washed some clothes... think i am goin to start packing my room... it has been delayed for 2 weeks.. OMG.. lazy piggy me.. haha...
wonder when will i go swimming.....
Saturday, December 17, 2005
My heart is confused...
haha.. yar.. i am so confused.. ahha... dunno if watever i am feeling now is correct or wrong.. haha... thats y i wish my heart can stop beating... haha.. then stop feeling for the time being.. heez.. holiday is ending real soon.. shit man... haha.. this yr is reali such an eventful year.. haha.. wait till the last day of this year then i summarise them.. haha...i am so confused... argh!! well guess oni stop thinking can cure this..hahaha...
now waiting to go to atmas house for housewarming.. wonder how it will be like.. heez.. well.. maybe i juz go there for a while then go... i will see how.. anyway tentatively on the 27th my nus friends are coming to my house for christmas celebration.. u all will be saying hey christmas is on the 25th.. but dun forget there is 12 days for christmas!! haha... anyway now other then kat is not coming.. edmond is still in bangkok.. carol havent reply.. then jon is also unclear.. the rest is coming.. heez.... hope they all can come.. the more the merrier.. heez..
Friday, December 16, 2005
Lovely day...
yesterday was a lovely day.. everything is juz so comfortable.. went out wif a friend.. we watched movie.. and i ended up shivering most of the time.. haha.. he is a nice person to go out wif.. heez.. the whole outing was filled with laughter.. haha.. teddy bear... yar. and the show was like so funny.. haha... oh man... everything is juz so perfect...
we talked alot and joked alot.. reali enjoyed.. hope he did too... and we went for dinner... oh man so so full.. haha..... then we wanted to look at the christmas lighting and he suggested that the lightings at city hall area are much nicer compared to orchard.. so we took a bus down and walked from city hall to esplanade roof top... it's so nice... i have nv been there before... glad that he brought me there... we talked for a while and then made our way home..
all in all yesterday is reali a nice day... love it...
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
Is heaven playing a trick on me?
well i already decided on my decision and started implementing it.. until this afternoon i got to neo that his dad passed away.. at the instant i cried.. maybe i can feel his pain and i am worried abt him.. sigh... guess i will juz postpone that for a while, end of this week i guess... i neo there is nth i can do.. all i can do is hope that he will be ok and take veri gd care of himself...
anyway i went to clara's house today!! haha... we had movie marathon.. haha.. thats fun.. gathering..talked and eat.. haha... next time they will be coming to my house.. heez.. so hapi...
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
Unwell..
damn.. stomach not well since yesterday's drink... sigh... feel so unwell.. damn... feel like puking out my stomach... argh.... cant eat anything or drink anything.. cant even puke.. argh!!
Over...
well since the start i am correct abt the gd news.. so the news didnt shock me.. but juz have some mixed feelings in my heart... well i met up wif him at 10am... things are the same as usual.. nth much... wanted to buy that alternative gift.. but didnt have the chance to... he say he want to watch king kong next week.. say want to go watch wif him... i am reali touched when he said that... then i ask him will he be free next week since he say he want to watch it next week.. he say y not and say will confirm later.. i am veri tempted.. veri veri tempted to go and watch wif him... but sigh.. didnt have the appetite for lunch.. but i couldnt show him the sad face.. many times nearly cried in front of him.. but i pulled back my tears.. reali reali hard... soon its time to leave.. and i couldnt bear to leave him... didnt want to turn back and look at him for that last time... wori if i did i wont want to let go...
met up wif sandy at tiong bahru plaza.. cried... sigh.. sandy too.. poor gal... then 830 met up wif a friend.. we went for a drink at bugis.. he accompanied me the whole nite.. told him alot... though i nv tell him wat reali happen.. he also didnt probed much.. juz a listening ear and a shoulder to lay on.. glad that he was there... talked alot.. and i dunno if i said something stupid anot.. juz neo he is there taking care of me... thanz...reali appreciate.. kept saying sori and thank you to him.. haha.. and sending me all the way home.. haha... think i reali lost all my image in front of him.. so paiseh..reali appreciate watver he has done for me...
Monday, December 12, 2005
Worry..Scared...
haiz... meeting at 10am... stupid me.. didnt manage to complete the thing i want to gif him.. i think even if i complete also veri ugly.. so well after i finish then i think of ways to send it to him bah.. so now i am getting an alternative gift for him.. but now the prob it how to get it.. i already neo wat to buy and stuff.. now thinking wat time the shop is open and where it is located in marina sq... haiz.. heart thumping.. wori..haiz..
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
Postpone...
today is supposed to be the big day... yar.. but it is postponed to next monday.. yar.. well gd thing is i can haf more time to finish up my gift.. maybe a few more days for me to get things rite in my head.. i also dunno.. each time i think abt the outing i feel quite scared.. looking forward to see him but on the other hand i am worried abt the after effect... well... hope i will not change my mind... hope so.. i need lots of energy.. juz feel messy on the inside... aha.. i dunno..
anyway victor is back to SG!! so hapi.. and i got to meet him up for a late dinner or rather supper.. haha.. so hapi.. we have so many things to talk abt.. heez.. well hope we can meet up another day.. heez.. then spend whole day catching up..heez... and go to ECP!! heez.. see stars.. and see aeroplane... haha.. or maybe we can go clubbing one of these days.. juz glad that he is back.. heez. miss this veri gd friend of mine.. heez.. simple hapi...=D
Thursday, December 01, 2005
Thoughts...
i juz cleared up some stuff on my room and i came across some ExxonMobil things.. well memories flow.. and i kept all those things into an envelop.. i miss the place alot or rather the pple there.. they are nice pple... haiz.. juz now typed alot of things but the stupid internet and now everything is gone.. haiz...
well my final showdown coming.. i dunno how i shd be feeling.. i used to do alot of things for him... yar.. but i guess now i will juz do 1 last thing for him b4 i bid farewell silently.. i guess thats the best i can do....
