Thursday, September 29, 2005
Stupid??haiz...juz a tutorial and i am struggling to do them..isnt it sad...haiz.. tutorial i already dunno how to do... how to pass? haiz.. so demoralised.. haiz.. something muz be wrong wif me.. y i cant seems to absorb the stuff into my pea brain? haiz.. i feel so stupid...
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Tuesday, September 27, 2005
Driving!!!!FINALLY!!! i pass... yar i neo i veri bad lah... i passed on my 3rd time..haha... but i am still proud of myself cos at least i pass!!!! yes!!! so hapi.. today i skipped all my lessons juz for this test.. reali veri hapi that i pass... gain back some of my confidence and a burden off my shoulder.. no longer need to wake up early in the morning on weekends for driving..haha.. no longer need to see the instructor's face...haha..the thought of it reali makes me veri hapi..haha... cant wait for my licence to be posted to my house..haha..cant wait for my dad to let me drive..haha...faint..juz too hapi!!! i hope he can celebrate wif me....hahah...
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Thursday, September 22, 2005
Are human selfish?been thinking abt this question for the past few days.. its true that every human are selfish in their own ways.. some are not obvious while some are a common knowledge to everyone.. how do u feel if u notice that someone is selfish towards u? do u actuali think that ur friends will share everything wif u? y is everyone so protective against one and another? isit because of what the world it is today? haiz.. its veri sad isnt it... dun u all find it so tiring to always depend on yourself? not dun open up and dun be so selfish? y so scheming? well i also want to be scheming so as to outfight others.. but the fact is each time i want to do that i will suffer the consequences first..and i also dun haf the brain to plot against others.. haiz..juz a sudden thought and feel like grumbling.. well i guess its always gd to depend on yourself... ultimately u only have yourself to depend on....
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Tuesday, September 20, 2005
Mid term break..Normally students will expect break to start on a monday and end on a sunday right? But well NUS has this very weird system. My mid term break actually started on a sunday and its ending this thursday. Haha..weird right? I also don't know why they choose to make the mid term break this way. So the start of each week will be on a friday and not a monday. This is confusing..
Got a lot of catching up to do. I have been slacking too much since school starts. Well now i need to find back my motivation, try to make myself feel better. Though I will start off slow, but better than nothing. Hopefully miracle do happen..heez..
Yesterday went back school to settle some reports before that i and peijun went to have mac breakfast! heez.. its much cheaper compared to outside mac. A big breakfast meal onlu $4.30. heez. ok lah.. my notes are all flying around. Driving me nuts, got to packed them.
I miss u..=D
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Monday, September 19, 2005
Chatterbox...yoh everyone...the chatterbox is up...hope i can see some postings in there..=D
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Sunday, September 18, 2005
Been a long time...yap its been almost a mth since i last blog...alot of things changed within this mth.. it changed my life.. and some scars are always there.. well..i always thought that if i dun demand much things will be smooth..but i was wrong.. maybe in the first place everything is wrong... reali cherish everything.. but watever that was promised was broken.. each time i think abt it reali hurts..
for a moment within this mth i thought i am ok and can move on.. but i realised i am veri veri wrong.. it nv left me... its juz that i chose to run away from it.. i am trying to think it in the positive way.. but i reali hope someday it can be back to the past again.. but i guess the chances is = 0%... my mood has been swinging up and down which is a real torture for me.. maybe watever that i done was forgotten.. maybe the hapi times were forgotten but it nv left me...
will u ever see this post? do u still come here? do u remember there are an email account for us? do u remember this and that? or isit no longer impt to u.. i dunno.. even if its no longer impt dun tell me cos i dun think i can take the blow.. but i am reali glad that u r still here helping me... thanx alot... well think i shall not comment anymore...
well been super busy wif sch..every week got endless things to do.. forever cannot finish and its piling up...dying!!! someone help..plus i lost my motivation..its even harder for me... its mooncake festival today!!! reali wish to go chinese garden.. but no one go wif me.. so well... haiz... nvm at least i still have my dou dou(teddy bear) haha... and my precious jacket.. heez.. jacket = you..heez... hugging it... reali hope to meet up wif my classmates soon...cos i have been too tired.. sori guys i couldn't meet up wif u all...
heard a few unpleasant stuff recently.. maybe its the wong time of the year when everything starts to go wrong..haha... btw this post is esp written bcos jin ping asked me to..hahah... jin ping bored can find me leh...hahha.. i also bored..haha.. though i abit crazy..haha...=P
i think i will stop here..suddenly no mood to write..heez... reason y i didnt update cos i dun want to see blog.. and listen to the song in my blog...abit saddening..haha... anyway.. hope i can pull through this sem and hope that ... will be able to celebrate my bday wif me...
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