Monday, December 29, 2003
New yr is coming..
hey everyone....soon 2003 is goin to end and 2004 is on our way....
let reflect back and look at how we spent this yr.... well wat can i say...
this yr is an exciting yr for me...full of ups and downs...heartbroken and
being loved....
the lst haf of the yr i am a GL...emm...we are having intense training
for the FOC....oh its fun and exciting....and made my life real buzi....
but in this process i made more friends...and learnt many stuff.....
then after FOC ended something nice happen to me..hehe....
i think i wont elaborate much on it....
the 2nd half of the yr is even more happening.....haha..... after
the LSCT election i went into the main committee...i am veri hapi...
i can contribute to the society and stuff.....but this means more work
and i spent more time in the sch..returning home almost every nite at 8pm
then haf to juggle my society work wif my studies...in the end i slp
veri late every nite..haha..transforming to panda every morning.
hahah.....well known panda in my LT....haha.....i am reali hapi
this sem.....then things got kinda of complicated when the examz are
approaching....something ended...and it might be a gd thing after all
maybe its a wrong step in the 1st place..and it shd not start at all...
emm....then i got onto my feet again....of course wif the pple ard me
and
a special person who is always there for me since we got into poly...
i would reali thanx this special someone.....ever since the 1st day in
poly...this person has been teking care of me.... treating me real well...
a person that understands me well....when i was heartbroken and
crying....this person is always there to lend me a shoulder...
always there trying to cheer me up in all ways and means....nth i can
say to show my appreciation for this special person.... THANX!!!
oh so fast the examz ended...waited anxiously for my results...so wori
that i will flunk...but luckily...i still manage to do well..at least beter than
my expectation....i will work harder next yr..hehe.... then my birthday..
oh a birthday which i will not forget other then my 16th birthday...
this is equally memorable.....emm...then in the holidays was so buzi...
trying to deal wif all the lsct events and preparations....trying to tune
myself properly..hahha...
oh yar i would reali like to comment on a thing..hahhah....u neo wat i find
out...i find out that this is a yr to FALL IN LOVE!!! hahah...wait i got evidence
1..hahha...cos pple ard me are all getting attached..hha....recently another
pair juz got together....hahah....though there are a number of partings..but
eventually all of them that parted got another love in their life...haha...
isnt it great??? hahah....kinda of shocking if i actuali count the number of
couples ard me..hahha....
okok i think i will end here...want to neo my NEW YR RESOLUTION??
hahha...look out for my next blog entry..hahha.....
TO BE CONTINUE...
_`i love u`_
Friday, December 26, 2003
Strange nite...
halo everyone!! shocked to see me at this time of the day?? hahah...
anyway yesterday went to alan house along wif mic,janice,dan xian,atmas,gary,
ah boon,qiurong and eugene....hehehe...we had steamboat there...as a form of
celebration for christmas..haha.....
so unfortunate of me...nearly drop dead in the train when i was on my way there...
felt giddy spells when i was in woodland...then i found a seat, sat there...i could not
open my eyes...then both my hands turned numb.....i could not feel anything....
was so afraid that i would reali drop there.....so worried.....so scared.....
finali i manage to make my way out of the train....lucky thing is i called alan to
pick me up at the platform.....then i juz dropped on the floor......thanx alan for helping me
reali thanx alot....=D if u not ard i dunno how i can go and meet the rest of u all.....
enough of unfortunate thing..haha...then we bough log cake!! so nice....then we
proceed on to buy vege and other ingredients for the steamboat..hehe.....
we took lrt to alan's house...oh man it started to pour!!!!! oh no..we are stuck at the bus
stop for a while..then we went to alan's grandma shop to tek shelter...borrowed umbrella
from then and we reached alan's house safely...hehe...
we started to prepare all the food..wash all the things and stuff...thanx to alan's mum
being so kind enough to cook for us!!! thanx!!! hehe...wanted to stayed together wif them
but my parents wont allow so i went home...so nice of my dad to drive me home....
after i reach home i watched tv talked on the phone...then went to slp.....slp at ard 2.30am
then guess wat time i woke up?? i woke up ard 4.40am....haiz...cant slp..reali cant slp...
toss and turn on my bed then i decide to on my radio then blog..heheh.....emmm...
wondering y i cannot slp..sian......haiz....
anyway i reali enjoyed my day today.....thanx for everything!!!=D
_`i love u`_
Wednesday, December 24, 2003
peaceful nite??
today is christmas eve!!! oh shd be an exciting nite....but for me..its not reali exciting....dun feel the festive mode.....its juz like any other day for me....guess many pple are waiting for christmas to come...emm...y i cant i feel the festive mode..hahah...muz be something wrong wif me..haha..anyway MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!
emm...didnt reali do anything today..rather relaxing...gd time for me to reali rest i guess....haha...oh yar yesterday celebrated christmas at a freshies's house!!! so nice of her...hehe.... we all bought presents to exchange... we had our feast there...some played mahjong..other chat and played some other game...i brought my camera along..heheh...hope to get some gd shot there..hehe...reali kinda of hapi yesterday...haha.....and guess wat present i got?? hahah..its a gift gary bought..how lucky of me....its those aroma thingy..haha..dunno wats that call..inside there are incense sort of thing for u to burn then got nice smell..hehehe....thanx!!=D
i think thats all for today.....may all ur wishes come true....and bring love to everyone ard...=D
_`i love u`_
Saturday, December 20, 2003
Tired..yet happy
emm..hehe...today did some of the I&E for
camp....i think its kinda of gd...goin to call
the sentosa pple...muz remember!!!!
after which i went out...wah..heavy downpour.
although there was an umbrella..hahah...but i still
got wet..which is reali wet..hahah....
so was cold in the bus..brrrr....heheh....
went to far east to eat kfc...yummy...hahha....
then started to shop for christmas present for
the coming christmas party!!!! hehe.....
went ard walking to see wat unique presents
i could buy...ahah.....guess wat i bought??
haha..i am not goin to tell u...thats for me to neo
for u to find out..=P ahha.....
then i bought a pink hair band today..haha..
looks nice!!! =D
then walk from orchard to douby ghuat mrt
station.....then headed for home....
though i am tired...i am veri hapi today..
reali enjoyed myself...feel so relaxed
juz feel so...emm...i also dunno how to describe...
oh yar...there is this JC party tml......
i want to go!!! i want to go!!! but then haiz...
my mum dun allow me leh...cos its at CENTRO(sp)
emm..hopefuli 1 day she will allow..haha...
nvm nvm....i goin on the 30th this mth..ahhaha..
sure goin.....=D
_`i love u`_
Thursday, December 18, 2003
Wedding Dinner
finali i am back form the wedding dinner..
heheh..its nice..hahha.....
today after the tea ceremony went to do up my
hair..ahahah....look kinda of weird...
its my first time making my hair this way...
anyway its kinda of nice..so heng ah..hahha...=P
today look kinda of different from my past 18 yrs
of life...so took some pic to keep it as a memory...
hahha.....(some for some purpose=P)
hope the pic will turn out will...hhehe....
emm...dun tink i haf any more to say..haha...
okok i think i will end here....
everyone tek care!!!=D
_`i love u`_
Wednesday, December 17, 2003
Hapi again
finali all the dispute and misunderstandings are
cleared...hhaha..gd gd....now oni got 1 sickening
fellow named lsct..anyway...juz hope he/she will stop
emm enough of those..hehe....chinese new year
coming soon..hehe....35 days i guess......haha...
tml i going for my cousin's wedding....
wah thinking abt it...oni left me and bro still not
married...hehe......time files..hahha....
victor asked me then when is my turn to get married..
hahaha.....and i told him....at least abt 7 yrs later
and provided there is someone that want to marry me
hahahha.....
i went to buy a pair of boots, a bag and a belt...
this pair of boots cost $90..wah..hahha...
expensive but reali nice and comfortable....
the belt is in a chain form....
tml got to wear all this....emm..hopefuli it will be nice..
hope to tek pic wif this outfit on..heeheh.....
yesterday slp quite late..then early in the morning
at 5am+ got woken up by my mum..and 7am+ by my
bro..haiz..i cant even haf a proper slp..hahaha...
then i woke up near afternoon...watched tv then tried
to clean my room...to prepare for the coming chinese
new year!!! hahahah..so excited.....and oh yar i
bought new ye deco today..hehehe...
emm....got to wake up early morning...
to go for the tea ceremony...then go salone
wash hair...hahha...emm.....exciting day tml...
haha..as if its my wedding like that.....=P
okok i think thats all for now....
for my classmate that want to neo which IS i chose
SMALL GRP COMMUNICATION
STARTING A BUINESS
both sechduled on tue morning....=D
_`i love u`_
Wednesday, December 10, 2003
Affected
haiz....ever since the problem started i am affected
by it...the problem juz stay in my mind... i dunno
wat i can do to help....wanted to find out a lot
of things...but i needed help from others....
haiz....
wat makes thing worse is that my parents....
they always dun support me in watever things
i do...haiz....always discouraging me....
wat the hell lor..cant they show some support
haiz...i dunno wat to say...
the above 2 things make me vexed and makes
me veri short tempered and gloomy.....
juz so tired abt all the things...haiz....i dunno
who to believe....
i am actuali keeping a 'tiger' beside me and not
knowing who the person is...isnt this frightening??
isnt it horrifying?? haiz.... feel so endangered.....
i reali hope the thing can be solved once and for all
i dunno wat will hapen after its solve.... will our
relationship improve or will the whole com simply
collasped...haiz...i am reali hoping for the best...
ever since mahathir said this sentence it has always
been in my mind..
dun run away problem try solving it cos running
away is not a solution
i will be praying for the best......
_`i love u`_
Tuesday, December 09, 2003
ShOcKed, SuRpRiSed & many more
hey guys!!! juz came back from camp yesterday
in sentosa..its fun!!! too bad that we dun haf much
participants...but everything still went on smoothly!!!
from this camp i got to neo somethings which i didnt
neo in the past...and i suddenly feels that i dunno
the pple ard me...and everything seems so unfamiliar..
but i also learnt something useful like pitching the tents!!!
hahah...isnt that great?
i hate peacocks!!!
hahhaha..they are such a nuisense..haha..but they r
real beautiful...feel strange at hime without them...
actuali before my camp i found out something which
makes me kinda of sad....haiz..kinda of hard for me to say
it out in details here....i dunno if its a blessing for me
to neo or not... y am i always not cherished by pple...
y r promises broken? y say things when u neo u cant
live up to it? during the camp...someone told me abt
a thing, which hurt me deeply...though its the past
and they dun feel so anymore...i dunno y its still hurt
esp when i neo the person also felt the same in the past..
**those reading the above may be blurred by wat i am
saying...sori abt the confusion..
Exam results!!
hahaha...i thought i will do badly this sem...cos of more
committment(sp) and laziness..hahhaa..my results are
beter than expected..haha....i am statified wif all the
results except for ISSM..anyway i expected it to turn
out this way..cos i didnt pay attention in class..
late for class and such...so i can get a C+ for this i am
hapi enough..juz that this C+ spolit the looks of
my results slip.....argh..sucks...hahha....
nvm like wat i say i am hapi wif it....
i can always work harder next sem...i will....
i am already a failure in love, i cannot be a failure
in my studies and career...so i will work hard...
emm..think i will end here..out of the sudden forget
wat i want to type..haha..so might as well end it here....
hope everyone rest in the holidays...enjoy..=D
_`i love u`_
Wednesday, December 03, 2003
??A New Beginning??
wat can i say? wat can i do?
things happened...i tried my best.... and in
the end...it still happened... all i can do now is
to wish him all the best in watever things he do
and hope things in his family will stay as good as ever....
been holding on to it so hard...comforting myself...
telling myself things are not as bad as i thought....
but things are still the same... did not improve...
stuck on the same point... every nite.. using tears
to clean my face...... having sleepless nite....
hearing my heart crack everytime i think of it......
is being emotional a flaw in me? i guess so.......
wanting to change this prob of mine...guess i can
nv succeed..... and this might a real prob for him...
its ok...i understand.......
things finali happened...all i can do is accept and
respect the decision....this might be a gd decision....
at least i wont be a burden to him anymore(if i ever was)
maybe he will be happier...maybe being friends is not
a bad thing after all.......
no one is to be blamed for this outcome....
both of us are responsible for watever that happened...
like wat he say...be hapi that it happened... i will and
i will remember them...last of all thanx...
heard a song on mtv recently....
its a song by mariah carey- through the rain
inside this song there is this part that totally spell
out my thoughts and feelings
"i can make it through the rain,i can stand up once again
on my own and i know,dat i am strong enough,and
everytime i feel afraid i hold on tight up to my faith
& i live 1 more day and i make it through the rain"
wanted to post something here a long time ago...
but i dunno wat to write...or i shd say i dunno how
to write them.....
to all pple that are concerned abt me....hehe...
dun wori i am fine.....been keeping myself buzi..
haha... and i am real buzi...buzi wif my open house
and esp the LSCT CAMP....wori abt the outcome...
ever since exams are over i haf been veri buzi...
didnt reali haf a chance to haf a gd rest... and
guess wat i fell sick......hahaha...
i fell sick 2 days ago...didnt thought that it will go worse..
but no wori...juz fever cough and flu.....
after teking panadol extra twice within abt 4-5h
it subsided...now left cough anf flu....
i am goin to let my immune system fight wif the disease..
LSCT CAMP coming soon....after that i gonna
concentrate in my YEP project and Open House...
hope i can get support from my fellow GLs....
special thanx to everyone that showered their
concern for me..i appreciated them...
dun wori i will tek care of myself...i haf always been
strong and i will continue to be strong.....=D
_`i love u`_